i've yet to venture into the land of professionalism. i have, however taken out a $75,000 dollar loan to cover my first year abroad. i'm seriously contemplating the black market for the next 3 years. who needs both kidneys?
i'm listening to "seas too far to reach" by okkervil river at this very moment.
i'm wondering which one of two andy warhol's i want to frame for my small apartment living room.
and how you are. i'm always wondering how you are.
want to tell me? want to tell me everything?
my parents might be moving to edmond if rick gets the job he applied for.
oklahoma has it's way of holding onto me.
as do you.
update me,
terra
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
message sent.
last night i dreamed that somebody loved me
i had 3 dreams that i remember my entire last year of college. now i've been home two and half weeks. i've had a dream every night, i remember every detail, and each one has starred someone who was/is an integral part of my life.
sarah and i were standing by the locker i had my senior year in high school. miles was behind me, as usual, giving me the craft that he had made using my inspiration in the previous class period. i was thanking sarah profusely for the ikea gift card she had given me. i hugged her as i gushed about the different ways i could use it. then she told me "don't sweat it, i'm a great gift giver" and asked me to lunch. only we had brought lunches. so we sat on the hill and ate pb&j's while kody wilson sat a few feet behind inconspicuously, and sketched a picture of sarah and i. during this candid lunchtime conversation, i watched about 30 of my high school classmates file down the hill toward their cars. i remember being thankful that i didn't have to participate in the race for fast food that day. then i woke up.
i was trying to decide which branch of the armed forces i would rather serve. an albino man in a WW2 nazi uniform kept telling me the swiss army was the way to go. i scoffed at him and made a snide remark about the swiss not needing an army. -scene 2- brynna and i were in a hotel in las vegas, only our hotel room was an exact replica of the dorm room we shared our freshman year. i came back from using the bathroom (down the hall) and brynna informed me a swiss army man had been looking for me, and that he had been 'meddling' with my contact case and carrying a gun. i put on my glasses as a precautionary measure and began quickly packing my things. i remember being so angry that brynna was taking the time to meticulously fold all of her clothes before packing. how could she be so calm when clearly my life was in danger? i ran to the nearest hospital which had an underground passage. i explained the situation and they offered to hide me there. before i crawled in the hole, my grandmother handed me a 'goody bag' to keep me going. when i got to the chamber underground i opened the bag and found raisinets, skittles, and goobers. i hate goobers. then i woke up.
sarah and i were standing by the locker i had my senior year in high school. miles was behind me, as usual, giving me the craft that he had made using my inspiration in the previous class period. i was thanking sarah profusely for the ikea gift card she had given me. i hugged her as i gushed about the different ways i could use it. then she told me "don't sweat it, i'm a great gift giver" and asked me to lunch. only we had brought lunches. so we sat on the hill and ate pb&j's while kody wilson sat a few feet behind inconspicuously, and sketched a picture of sarah and i. during this candid lunchtime conversation, i watched about 30 of my high school classmates file down the hill toward their cars. i remember being thankful that i didn't have to participate in the race for fast food that day. then i woke up.
i was trying to decide which branch of the armed forces i would rather serve. an albino man in a WW2 nazi uniform kept telling me the swiss army was the way to go. i scoffed at him and made a snide remark about the swiss not needing an army. -scene 2- brynna and i were in a hotel in las vegas, only our hotel room was an exact replica of the dorm room we shared our freshman year. i came back from using the bathroom (down the hall) and brynna informed me a swiss army man had been looking for me, and that he had been 'meddling' with my contact case and carrying a gun. i put on my glasses as a precautionary measure and began quickly packing my things. i remember being so angry that brynna was taking the time to meticulously fold all of her clothes before packing. how could she be so calm when clearly my life was in danger? i ran to the nearest hospital which had an underground passage. i explained the situation and they offered to hide me there. before i crawled in the hole, my grandmother handed me a 'goody bag' to keep me going. when i got to the chamber underground i opened the bag and found raisinets, skittles, and goobers. i hate goobers. then i woke up.
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